This is a thing you are bound to hear 10,000 times on your mold recovery journey. It is incredibly frustrating to hear, but it is only meant to help remind you of the actual real life progress you are bound to encounter.
Western medicine is great at "curing" symptoms and conditions with pills.
As a culture that rushes us through everything and demands our top performance at all times, hearing that healing doesn't work immediately and correctly the first time is hard to deal with.
I've fallen down more times than I can count on this entire journey. Today is one of those days. I was amazed a week and a half ago when I didn't catch the stomach virus sweeping through our home. I think it found me now. That coupled with my first usage of a castor oil pack last night woke me at 4am today with the most nausea, soreness/pain in my kidney areas, stomach pain and frequenting the bathroom.
Virus + Herx = MCAS reactions also.
I can't keep much down, so I can't really take anything to help calm my flare or aid my body; I'm just trying to rest and let my body do its thing.
This day has been a lot. My husband has been caring for our kids at home while he is still at work and in meetings. I'm feeling like a failure of a parent. Our little 4 year old and 6 year old are just left to wander the upstairs of our house near us and engage their little imaginations themselves, (which isn't horrible because they get along and are creative, but makes me so sad.) I'm working toward dragging myself out to "play" with them at 2:30pm today-5pm- when my husband gets off work. It feels like such a tall order but I know I will do it because our kids deserve that love and attention and interaction time.
These days are going to happen. We will fall down on our journey of recovery.
Just remember to get back up when you are able. If you look back 3 months, or 6 months, or 1 year, you should be seeing overall progress. This is how you know you are on the right track.
Try your best of keep a journal or a checklist of your symptoms, then you can look back and reference them and see what has changed or what hasn't. You need to give yourself these reference points so that you know if you are still overall heading in the right direction or if you need to change up your treatment plan/reexamine your environment.
If you fall down, I'm sorry. I feel your pain. And I encourage you to get back up.
(Image taken from https://www.yogawithcr.com/healing-isnt-linear-dealing-with-a-healing-crisis/)
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